3/15/2023 0 Comments Lonely tumbleweed gif![]() The research facility’s cameras play back at warp speed: bodies break open, the skin marbled red and yellow, a reflection of the sinking Texas sun. ![]() He studies forensic anthropology, observing what happens when a body is given back to the earth. He shows up to the bigger family gatherings-kid birthdays, first weddings, funerals that skew younger. Last weekend I intercepted him at his daughter’s birthday in front of the “adult” punch bowl and asked him how they decide when it’s time to return remains to the family, what they do when there’s no family left. At first I thought he hadn’t heard me, his silence measured as he meticulously ladled red drink into his cup. But then a thin lipped smile, a Glad y’all could make it today. My husband has asked me to stop talking about the body farm, to stop running by the body farm. He says people will think I’m some sort of female Jeffrey Dahmer, that the police will think I’m trespassing-even if the body farm abuts our property and I’m legally allowed to run through our fields. ![]() He asks me not to tell him about the blooming and the bloating, the puddles leaking out of flesh cracks, the maggots busily building on newfound terra. He says we should talk about anything else, that neither of us is dying. I wait until he is snoring to slip my phone off the nightstand, screen brightness dimmed, my fingers sprinting from one article to the next about missing women, about girls with gashes in their skulls, ditches and forest floors teeming with dead bodies. She’s given me a diagnosis: existential isolation. A newer brain disease, not something my gran would have been diagnosed with. But my therapist says it’s becoming more common, women sent to her office who scroll through Instagram to make themselves feel less lonely and more disconnected simultaneously.
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